I can relate to what you are saying. I have to work hard at NOT letting this consume me. That's hard to do when I feel crappy so much or limited in what I can do. Not to mention having to do SO much research to educate myself so I can be the best advocate for myself as possible.
This forum is a great a great place for information and venting and finding others who have been or are going through similar issues.
Good luck and remember we are here for you.

I was a big journaler at the beginning of my illness in order to see what was wrong with me. My strategy was to record things in the morning and in the evening.

I never think of my illness, but I am always aware of it. Sounds crazy, huh? What I mean is that I know my triggers and I automatically avoid them, just like any person who would avoid doing or eating something they don't like. It has become second nature for me, and it is easy. You have to forece yourself to distract yourself, though. Like you, if I spend too much time dwelling on it, I can start up my own symptoms right then and there! So, I simply don't let myself dwell....