Hi Everyone ,
I wanted to start a thread where we feel free to discuss the change in our life and how we are doing with dealing with it . This is not a pity party but a real chance to support each other through what for me was a grieving process and path to accepting our new health status .
I ahve found it hard to talk to doc's about my real changes and dealing with it because of their desire to say its all in my / our heads .
I also found talking to family bought silence or plattitudes , which made it hard to talk . I also don't want them to be upset any more by all this
This experience is not specific to masto / IA or MCAS . We have all been through so much
lets support each other in it
So me first :- I spent 6 months in happy denial , focussed on food religiously and didn't let myself feel scared . Then it hit and I spent a time in a grieving process . where I would be happy ( bargening ) but suddenly angry or overwhelmingly sad . I also holy grailed - hoping to find that one condition that I would get a cure for and be " back to normal " Then I went into its medium term , I have to accept it but only for now .
All of this on at he backdrop of 3 weekly shock and daily major symptoms .
I use the poem :- have the courage to change the things I can , serenity to change the things I can't and wisdom to know the difference .
I love music so I ahve had songs at various parts to help me
. From Bon Jovi - Saturday night .
Some day ill be saturday night ill be back on my feet , doing all right
Hay man im alive taking each day and night at a time , yeah i am down , but I know ill get by.
And when i found the right Doc's - paul mc cartney - let it be -
There will be an answer , let it be ..............................
But at times I was more Parklife :- I wake in in afternoon , except on wednesday when I am rudely awoken by the dustman "
The Biritsh garbage collectors have a huge truck and are very noisy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But Christmas day 09 . i decided to start a revolution form my bed . At that time it was exactly that . i was very poorly . In bed , using a commode ( bedside toilet ) . I manged to make a loaf of bread that day , by helping my partner sort ingredients for the new bread maker . I also did remote cooking of christmas dinner with timing directions to hubby . I manged to be wheeled to the sofa and eat my dinner
I know it sounds so sad and it is , but that was a major achievement for me that day
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Now I have accepted I am changed , but I can live within this . Work is the thing I miss
. My children have been my drive and motivation even on my worst days . That remains how things are .
Josie